THAT BANK SHUT DOWN IN THE EIGHTIES,” my father scoffed when Grandpa handed me the old passbook at my wedding — but I went anyway, and the manager… came out from behind the teller station with another executive at his side, both of them suddenly much more formal than anyone ever gets over a worn little bankbook. It was just after nine on a Cleveland morning, the sky pale over the lake, the downtown office towers still coming awake behind their sheets of glass. I stood there in work boots and a flannel shirt, holding the same blue passbook my grandfather had placed in my hands at my wedding while half my family treated it like some useless leftover from another era. Five years later, the bank was the first place that didn’t.

The bank teller’s hands stopped moving on the keyboard. She looked at her screen, then at me, then back at the screen. Her face had gone pale. “Sir,” she said, …

THAT BANK SHUT DOWN IN THE EIGHTIES,” my father scoffed when Grandpa handed me the old passbook at my wedding — but I went anyway, and the manager… came out from behind the teller station with another executive at his side, both of them suddenly much more formal than anyone ever gets over a worn little bankbook. It was just after nine on a Cleveland morning, the sky pale over the lake, the downtown office towers still coming awake behind their sheets of glass. I stood there in work boots and a flannel shirt, holding the same blue passbook my grandfather had placed in my hands at my wedding while half my family treated it like some useless leftover from another era. Five years later, the bank was the first place that didn’t. Read More

“YOUR MOTHER IS DEAD, AND CRYING WON’T BRING HER BACK—SO WIPE YOUR FACE, GET DINNER ON THE TABLE, AND TRY NOT TO LOOK LIKE A WIDOWED CHILD WHEN MY GUESTS ARRIVE,” MY HUSBAND SAID JUST TWO HOURS AFTER I CAME HOME FROM OAK RIDGE CEMETERY, STILL SMELLING LIKE CHRYSANTHEMUMS, STILL HEARING THE DIRT HIT MY MOTHER’S COFFIN—AND SOMEHOW, THROUGH SHOCK, THROUGH TEARS, THROUGH THE SOUND OF HIS LAUGHTER ECHOING OVER THE PLATES SHE GAVE US AS A WEDDING GIFT, I COOKED FOR THE PARTY HE WOULDN’T CANCEL… UNTIL A BLACK CAR STOPPED OUT FRONT, HIS BOSS WALKED IN, TOOK ONE LOOK AT MY SWOLLEN EYES, AND SAID THE WORDS THAT MADE THE WHOLE ROOM GO COLD: “EVERYONE WHO’S ANYONE IN THIS TOWN KNOWS WHO YOUR MOTHER-IN-LAW WAS—EVERYONE BUT YOU.”…

Your mother is dead. What good is crying going to do? Is it going to bring her back? Hurry up and get dinner ready. My friends will be here soon. …

“YOUR MOTHER IS DEAD, AND CRYING WON’T BRING HER BACK—SO WIPE YOUR FACE, GET DINNER ON THE TABLE, AND TRY NOT TO LOOK LIKE A WIDOWED CHILD WHEN MY GUESTS ARRIVE,” MY HUSBAND SAID JUST TWO HOURS AFTER I CAME HOME FROM OAK RIDGE CEMETERY, STILL SMELLING LIKE CHRYSANTHEMUMS, STILL HEARING THE DIRT HIT MY MOTHER’S COFFIN—AND SOMEHOW, THROUGH SHOCK, THROUGH TEARS, THROUGH THE SOUND OF HIS LAUGHTER ECHOING OVER THE PLATES SHE GAVE US AS A WEDDING GIFT, I COOKED FOR THE PARTY HE WOULDN’T CANCEL… UNTIL A BLACK CAR STOPPED OUT FRONT, HIS BOSS WALKED IN, TOOK ONE LOOK AT MY SWOLLEN EYES, AND SAID THE WORDS THAT MADE THE WHOLE ROOM GO COLD: “EVERYONE WHO’S ANYONE IN THIS TOWN KNOWS WHO YOUR MOTHER-IN-LAW WAS—EVERYONE BUT YOU.”… Read More